As I reflect on the year that has passed, I find myself thinking about all the things that did not work out. Not long ago, even acknowledging this list would trigger anxiety, anger, and deep self-doubt—often spiraling into low self-esteem and emotional darkness. Back then, “things not working out” felt like personal failure.
This year, something changed.
It’s not that the list of things that didn’t work out has disappeared. In fact, it still exists. But what’s different now is my perspective. Through healing, I’ve come to understand that what didn’t work out wasn’t life working against me—it was life working for me, in ways I couldn’t yet see.
A few years ago, my healing journey began. It wasn’t instant or dramatic. Healing didn’t arrive through a single breakthrough, a retreat, or therapy alone. It unfolded slowly, in waves. At first, the waters were rough. The journey felt heavy, confusing, and exhausting. But I stayed with it. And over time, what once felt like survival slowly turned into trust—trust in myself and in life.
Looking back now, I can see how all the things that didn’t work out quietly shaped me. Each disappointment, rejection, or detour came together in ways that served a deeper purpose. They redirected me, softened me, and taught me how to choose myself, protect my peace, and listen to what truly mattered.
This year, I made a conscious shift. Instead of hoping that things would work out someday, I chose to live by a new belief: things are working out for me, even when it doesn’t look that way. This mindset didn’t come from blind optimism—it came from healing. From lived experience. From learning that growth often happens in disguise.
As I move forward with this faith, I see myself changing. I’m happier. I feel lighter. I do more of what I love, without the constant weight of anxiety or fear. And slowly, almost quietly, things are working out—often in ways far better than I imagined.
That is the beauty of healing.
Today, when I look back at all the things that didn’t work out, I feel something unexpected: gratitude. Because in a deeper, more meaningful sense, those very moments made space for the life that is working out—more honestly, more gently, and more beautifully than before.
And for that, I feel good.
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